I have done this too. I sent an email telling my T all the things she was doing that weren't working for me, I was really critical, I didn't realsie at the time how critical my email was, I was in an angry and distressed state. It was really hard to go back after that. But I did. The first session after we didn't really talk much about the email, I chose to talk about my distress, she did comment on the email and reflected that what I was saying to her was perhaps how my parents made me feel as a child. She wasn't angry with me at all, she was really quite gentle. I felt that if I didn't go back I would be running away from myself, not her. And running from my anger, I seem to have a lot of anger buried inside me and I think that learning to deal with it in a safe place is really helping me, but it is so hard, I would like to be perfect...