SnakeCharmer: Thanks for your reply. Yes, I´ve kind of felt this being in other relationships too but not in such a strong way. I though feel that often it´s not that much of an idea to bring complaints to the surface as you can´t change the way another person acts. It´s comforting to hear that many others have those experiences with their T:s.

As I in some way think that my T provoked me into these feelings I become even more reluctant to express what I feel. I don´t want to be fooled into certain reactions but that the session is honest and open from both parts.

I feel humiliated if the T now just thinks "oh, what an interesting pattern, how nice P got angry with me". As a client you then just get diminished into some kind of laboratory rabbit.

Thanks for your supportive words, hug back.