I am new to the forum. I suffer from diagnosed Complex PTSD and right now, several "sub" issues which include: dissociative problems, occasional suicidal ideation (comes/goes), depression, social anxiety (comes/goes), self-harm injury (not too active with this right now- also comes/goes), and well - I don't know what else.

I have been hugely triggered with all issues because I just cut ties with a church which was triggering me and have lost many friends - in addition, I have lost the majority of my family due to death - including suicide loss of my older brother to whom I was very close and connected.

I am a train wreck who is functioning in a professional field - and I AM functioning in it, although my work is part time right now.

I am trying to learn coping skills - have learned some and trying to learn more. I find it very difficult.

One issue I am dealing with is the realization that I can learn to cope, and this is my recovery. But I'll never really be "normal" if there is such a thing.