I'm not entirely sure. I mean I am comfortable in this body dare i say even enjoy being in this body and being a woman but just not in the society conventions of it i.e. tall slim gorgeous social butterfly, or of recent curvy sexy great at drawing into all the "right" films, games and music, tattooed, pierced, etc...

I don't fall into either of those and I have used to change myself just to seem attractive to men but...at the end of the day and through the hard way i realized how detrimental this was to my psyche...

I still have awful loneliness pangs which last for weeks, months at a time, but i think being your true self is one of the kindest things you can do for your mental health...