Was woken up at 7:30 this morning by the trucks emptying out the dumpsters not far from my house. They always do it so early, no one can get any sleep. I have a headache now, am planning on going to the library later because I have books that are due. However, I feel so insecure and ugly. I get anxious at the very thought of having to be seen in public. Nobody likes to be burdened by having to look at a fat and ugly girl, and they make sure you know it. I can only try to ignore the mean looks, but it really gets me down.

Mom is also awake and is already drinking. I hate her always being drunk.