Lately I´ve been feeling more and more lonely between the sessions and I think it´s because my T decided she won´t be that caring or nurtering any longer. I feel that she also cares of course but the feeling afterwards isn´t that pleasant, that is when I leave therapy and starts to think about what has been said.

I also feel that there´s such a long way to go to get better and in relation to my T I think she just lives an easy life, having her own practise, being able to go on trips and so on whilst I have to spend most of my time alone between sessions.

Therefore I can´t really relate to her and be fully open to her, it would be the same situation with another T as they will always be superior in some way. They work - I´m unemployed. Them having relationships (most often) - I´m single. They have money - Me living on welfare and so on.

I know T:s shouldn´t be my friend but I think those 50 minutes in session once a week (it´s not possible having more frequent sessions because of lack of money) just feels insufficient. T doesn´t offer contact through e-mail, she´s available on phone if there´s more of an emergency to talk about but not in general.

Even if my T is openminded and lets me talk about mostly what I want the actual time isn´t enough. It takes some minutes at the beginning of the session to get into therapy mood and most often I feel quite uneasy at some time during the session and that also makes me a bit distant to my T and to the therapy itself. The result being that I then feel left out, lonely and I also feel it´s hard to have to wait for several days for another meeting.

One of the reasons I went into therapy is that I often feel lonely and I am also quite lonely with just a couple of friends and therefore I think I´m now feeling very vulnerable when experiencing feeling lonely after the therapy sessions.

Is there anyone else feeling this way? Just want to hear your opinions, talking to my T about this will perhaps come into question later but now I just want some support in here.