I'm sorry your experiencing this form of abuse. Religion has been used for thousands of years to bully people into submission. Think of the "Islamic" terrorists. What your family is doing to you is no different than what terrorists do. And, religion or not, any family that does not accept each person's individuality, and actually punishes you for it, is dysfunctional and severely abusive. If they were truly Christian they would not be doing this to you. That kind of environment can be extremely damaging to your self esteem, you sense of self and selfworth. The sooner you can get away from them the better.