Thanks for the help guys. I was starting to worry I might need to check myself in. I have not had an urge to act on any of these feelings so that is good but the virulence of them shocks me. A friend asked me to hold her newborn the other day and instead of feeling the aww baby feeling I normally get I just had this deep feeling of revulsion and disgust in my belly. No fantasies of harming anyone, and I do not have these feelings with my own family so I am just starting to wonder if people are awful or if I am.