ShyPoetGirl, (I hope you don't mind this) I'm sorry for what you are going through and dealing with. Just want you to know as a young girl I was very concerned with how I looked and worried I wasn't good enough or would be looked down on. There are so many people in the world who struggle with their weight and worry about their own looks, they are too busy with their own lives to be concerned of how you look. Everyone judges themselves too harshly and I hope you can find it in you to accept yourself as you are. The library is a great place to go, hope you do.