I am not supposed to exert myself. I am supposed to rest daily. I have been of schedule for meds due to family needs and patterns, So I have always kept up the basement and the garage which now isn't a garage, just another part of the basement. So I told hubby that I was not going into either space until he cleaned them and he knows my standards. Well, the other day I snuck in trying not to look at anything. I just grabbed a cozy coop car we don't currently need, and a stroler. I put them by the road and they were gone within15 minutes. So I went in looking for stuff to start de-cluttering and the whole area was holy chaos with the contractor stuff and the mess of ours. i won't give you nasty details but 11 hours later and a conversation with my junk man it is all packed in bags if it's trash except for the floor tile hubby didn't pack when I went to the dump Sat. The junk guy can see what he wants for metals etc and haul the rest and charge me with trash weight. This will be an expensive voyage.

But alas the issue is the pain and what I just did to myself. I took mega extra meds, no lectures please. So I may be in mega pain in bed for a week or I may escape in which case I plan to do the basement where I stored the kids toys for the maybe someday kids, clothes, papers, all in bins. However things have been opened and messed with and the shelves are horrid and the laundry hubby is supposed to do is backed up to the windows. More give away stuff . Sick of so much stuff. Give it all away. Snow blower that hubby won't use as he has bad reynards disease and his toes are blue and sore now, when it;s warm. Me with stiff fingers each morning and the parkinsons walk. Doctor tomorrow. Man I am angry that as usual everything falls to me.

I can feel the methadone starting in. I will be in dreamland soon. Lets help my stupidity didn't cause permanent problems. I am however intrigued that the angry hormone, endorphines I quess allowed me to lift things when I usually can't lift much. Please hope with me that I am going to be fine. I am a bit worried.