I want to feel good enough for anyone and anything I do I knock myself down every chance I get. it's just the type of person I am.... the mirror is both my enemy and my best friend. the mask I wear is stuck to me at this point and there's no chance of anyone taking it off because I would never show who I really am. that is my insecurity.... my evil side is hating who I am and not telling anyone how I really feel. I am sad all the time, not because I cho ose to be because I don't know of anyone that would choose to be unhappy. my unhappiness shows up every now and then and it's at the worst possible moments. I could be at a party, people having a great time and my insecurites kick in and I wonder what the heck am I doing here, I'm not good enough to be here having fun with everyone else. so, I do what a sad person does sometimes, I drink! honestly I don't like the stuff but if it helps with my sadness at that moment, I will be happy temporarily being who I am not pathetic I know. people say I'm cute, I'm sweet... that's just not enough for me...