So, I have been battling this question now for quite some time. Is Life worth to me?
Weighing the pro's and Con's

Pro's
1. I have a Beautiful 18 year old. While he is Autistic and it is hard for him to truly understand what I am going through he is the number one reason I have kept fighting for so long.
2. I've been married to a Gentle and somewhat understanding man now for 19 years. We have had our ups and downs and I am sure this deep depression I am in is not making it easy on him
3. My Biological Father is living with us and He does love me.
4.I have a Therapist and some friends who care about me to.

Con's
1. I have been in and out of hospitals now for five years. The last one was from 10-6 to 10-13.
2. The Pain is overwhelming and I can not shake the feeling of this deep depression that is lingering over me.
3. The Flashbacks from the PTSD is now happening all through the day. I can not seem to talk myself down for a long time.
4. Giving up seems like the best option because the Pain is overwhelming.
5. When I need the support the most, my friends and Therapist are not available.
6. When I get into the chat rooms here I seem to get lost because alot of other people are going through similar feelings which leaves me feeling worse because I do not get the support I need at the time.
7. I feel anger all the time but do not know how to express it.
8. How long does my family have to keep dealing with me and all my problems.

Wow it seems the con list is longer!!
Lost for knowing what to do!!

Please do not avoid talking to me through this thread. I may not respond back for a while because I just need to listen to what others think!!

Thanks
Time for help