This whole thing with my family and especially my dad - continuous daily fighting about the cats (that i love more than anything else and are my reason for living), may seem silly but its causing me lots of stress, hurt feelings and exasperation.

to the point im seriously considering getting drunk and self harming in front of them or even killing myself just to make them SEE what they are doing to me. or spare myself the pain of living as i am now.

my mom fought her battle for moving for years and this year she finally won.
i am shattered beyond words. she stepped on me and destroyed my world.

my dad has been fighting his battle to get rid of the cats and he is getting closer and closer. im sick of giving in, especially when the living beings i love the most will suffer because of him. he says "either the cats or me" and i would choose the cats. now im tempted to say "if you throw out the cats i'll throw out myself too".

he does have his reasons, my mom did too, but its too much for me. i know this could seem all trivial but its all i got and they are tearing it all apart. i hate them and i cant and dont want to go through this.

i dont know how anyone could help, but please, some help?