I know the feeling. I miss my hypomania.....not the full-blown mania which turns nasty on me, but the feeling of flying high, being able to do all sorts of things, seeing all the beauty in the world, etc. The meds have tamped down all that, and now I only experience depression when I become unstable. That sucks, even though it's easier on everyone around me than when I get manic and don't listen to anybody.