Thank you. im glad to hear someone understands my infinite love for my pets. and you also hit it on the nail saying they are the symbol for my loss even if in a little different way than you got it.

maybe i wasnt very clear: we all moved into a new house, but it was because of my moms decision. its interesting though that you made that association because like my former T used to point out, i used to see my Home as a mother, sometimes more than my own mom. i almost have stronger attachment to objects than people, so the loss was greater for me than it usually is for anyone with healthy bonds with people and objects. and i do feel as if i have lost a family member. anyway, i mentioned it only to let you know how much else i've been through recently.

my dad never wanted cats and in the other home it wasnt a big issue even though he used to complain often too but now he's using this move to achieve his goal of throwing out the cats. maybe they would adjust in the end, even if its getting colder, but it hurts ME and i find it cruel for them, after all the efforts and stress we all went throught to help them accept the new house.

i would accept a compromise: 2 cats out and 1 in for the night at least, but he refuses to listen. i dont want to give in once again. i have lost everything with this move, i dont want to lose this battle too. its unfair.

i hope talking a bit here will help - its already helping. thanks. i dont want to go back to T.