Hi Tracy
First of all, welcome to PC! You truly truly have came to a good place, and trust me when i say that it's okay to "complain" or talk about whats bothering you on here - thats what we're here for!
I'm sorry to hear about your friends and family. That can sure put a person in a tough spot. Do you have anyone that you can talk to about any of this? A T or close friend or family member? If not, well you have us here, and I hope that you keep posting and keep us updated.
((((((hugs)))))
Jacq