Okay, so I thought I was over the rape, but apparently I'm not. Me and some friends drank over the weekend and I couldn't help but watch the flashbacks over and over again in my head. I couldn't stop the tears from rushing down my face. I decided to take a nap and when I woke up, I felt a little better.

How can I ever get over this? Even if it's just a little bit of restitution for myself...

I won't report him, and I see him everyday in school. He doesn't know that what he did is affecting me this bad. And I don't plan on telling him.....or should I...maybe me confronting him is the solution. If I talk to him and tell him what he did was wrong and it hurt me in so many different ways, maybe it will make me stronger and give me some sort of antidote to this suffering. I just don't know how to handle this depression that rides on my back every single day I'm alive.

Any suggestions?

P.S. Don't tell me to report him. It's never going to happen...