We decided, my conservative city is full of people who don't understand me. I don't belong here or on this country. Like I'm not attracted to any women, I'm not interested what people are into in this city I've lived in all my life, I don't want to waste my life on drugs and a simple life of self defeating crap, I'm leaving this city for good one day not coming back, you can't make money here, everyone's wages averagely are 80,000 on down annually which isn't terrible, but that might be overshooting it. I think most people here are very poor, conservative, ignorant people. They don't care about anything except themselves our mental health system is more broken than anywhere in the states. I know because I read the study behind my therapists back years ago with a different group. I found out my city abuses more patients and treats them like a prison system than helping the issue.

Our city has been crap, people are always negative and if your bright happy and positive people swarm you to get you hooked on drugs, wasting your life with dead end jobs and putting you a place of submission. People are simple, hard, and often cruel many people don't care if someone is dying until they are dead.

I have no close relationships, because I can't get close to anyone. People are very uneducated and choose to be ignorant, impatient and often very whiny and rude.

I'm not complaining, I'm being blunt on how this is. It's not coming from only me, everyone says this here. It's a miserable city with decent income jobs, but many many many crap jobs and a lot of people are more under the poverty line and starving all the time. The only thing that gives me hope they do something about the actual homeless community.

My therapist told me, I can't relate to anyone because of society and what people believe morally or whatever belief what's "normal" for them in any area. I don't belong in, she suggested I'd thrive in key west florida. I don't know about that, because I know nothing of the area.

I'm more sexually inclined and understanding than the average person, I choose to read and learn and make an effort than talking out my ***.

I don't think anyone is attractive in my city, if they are physically. Their personality is like everyone else's I realized I'm not picky. I realized, I don't belong in this city. I don't have friends I really say I'm best best friends to. I just use best friend as a generic term to say for people I'm having somewhat close relationships, but I don't belong here and never will.

I hope to one day be super rich or rich enough to leave america or go somewhere to be away.