I take 20mg of Prozac. I was like you. I told my pdoc I was thinking about death a lot. He said, we have to flip your mood-- fast.
So he started me out at 10 mg and moved it up to 20 after a few weeks.

I take abilify, and xanax, so they offset the mania.

Aren't you taking a couple of things which create a sedative effect? If so, they will help balance the mania.

Take care. No one needs to be sitting around thinking about suicide.