Hugs Wildflower, your having a terrible time of it at the moment and I'm sorry to hear that. Its horrible when a traetment doesnt give us the results we were hoping for, but its early days by the sounds of it......Who knows, things might be different by Monday- I hope so.

In the meantime you have a few days to spend with your loved ones. If at all possible try to live for the hear and now, let the future be whatever it is, deal with it then. I'm hoping by the time I am an old man they will have cures for many of the mental illness that plague the misfortune who suffer from them.

Hang in there.

Hugs