I'll just go ahead and say it, i'm doing very bad in school. I'm in 10th grade. My grades are great, but i'm not learning ANYTHING. I usually find all the answers to what I have to do in my books or other sources (Internet, etc).

I'm usually always depressed. I feel like no matter what I do, i'm going to suck at everything anyway. So why try?

I just don't know what to do, the last time I cried my mom got mad at me. I have nobody to talk to, and every time I try to open up and talk about my feelings I start to cry and I don't want people to get mad at me. So I only have people online to talk to, that's why i'm here. I get really dark thoughts in my head all the time too, and I don't know what to do about this.

My dream is to get a PhD in Astronomy and Physics. I love Science, but i'm an idiot (literally) so I won't be able to achieve that goal. My life is a wreck. I need someone to talk to because I feel like exploding.