Hi all,

I think I'm experiencing a mixed state, but I'm not sure if it's too early to call. Last week I was suicidal -- I contacted suicide hotlines, cut myself, had no energy to do anything. This week I was great. I wrote stories and plays, planned out novels, and had a lot of grandiose plans for the future. Generally giddy and happy. I had lots of lucid dreams and would often have trouble sleeping, as I'd either wake up with a racing heart or couldn't fall asleep despite being exhausted, or would feel anxious and talk to myself at night. My mind just wouldn't shut up. Now I'm starting to feel irritable and disgusted by everything. I can't sit still and have this weird urge to fight someone, but since I know that will land me somewhere bad I'm going for a run instead. My thoughts don't feel like mine -- they feel racing, and oddly hyper focused, and I have no attention span to do one project at a time.

Does this sound like something to worry about? Thanks in advance for any input!