So for awhile now (about 4 years) ive had black outs, outbursts of things i wouldnt normally say or do, mindlessly talking to myself (sometimes i catch myself doing it and sometimes i dont) along with ill randomly awake in a place i dont recall ever being but somehow i know the way home. Its very frightening so i went to the doctor and after 3 months of evauation in a facility i was diagnosed DID "multiple personality". You could imagine how i felt but it got worse...my body rejected the medication due to allergies my father had (he died when i was 10 we were very very very close) so i have to instead do it the hard way and try to overcome it and break through no meds...in short its been my own personal form of hell. On top of that my emotions eventually numbed and began to become limited on what i could do (my family basically encourages me to isolate myself as im the black sheep and the object of everyones projection along with their old fashioned so they're ashamed of me despite me having a much higher IQ) so i sneak out at 1am through my window to look at the stars and try talking to my father (i know hes dead but at least if he IS up there he'll hear me).