Hi,
I am very impressed by your post as I am not able to write down a pro and cons list or participate in chats here, either. I just write on this board and reading posts here are very useful to me. Certainly, depression is a experience experienced alone and in loneliness. I find myself telling others that I am just fine because their feedback is so useless if I tell otherwise. They just do not get it and like you, even though I have friends and a T right now, they may not be available when I need them most. I think that on top of my depression, which brings isolation, there are issues in the way our society is, in general, solidarity is scarce and we are too taken by meaningless stuff having little time to cultivate friendship and help each other. Depression is a monster and sometimes society does not help. OK, this is all for now. Thank you again for your post