I've given my intelligence, my body, and subtracted years off my life to medicine. I'm lucky enough that my 'side effects' are actually on purpose. I hate them! I gag them back up every night. I don't think they help they just change things but everyone less concerned with the changes it makes. I'm safer around my son and I guess that's what counts but it wouldn't matter if my depression medication keeps me active enough to purposely take my life.

What am I doing to change it? I'm stuck taking meds until my son is grown and I'm no longer with my husband. I'm going back to therapy and all the normal calm healthy lifestyle that helps but i don't see me being 'allowed ' off meds for a very long time.