all that is popping into my head from your post is that you may need some self esteem. I used to be bothered by people not acknowledging me but I don't care anymore and I wondered why..and it is because I have high self esteem today. I don't need that acknowledgement. you wouldn't feel like you are a drain on others if you felt better about yourself. you would feel like you are an asset. I used to feel terrible about myself and give myself all kinds of negative messages all the time. it took time to change that. I started doing it with one thought. I found one indisputable thought. one positive thing about myself I could not contradict. that I was an excellent professional writer. I had all kinds of evidence to support this. so whenever I thought something negative about myself, I would add on, yeah but I am an excellent writer. that way I could be left feeling good instead of bad. eventually I came up with another positive thought about myself. it took a couple years but I eventually had a whole file drawer of positive thoughts about myself and my self esteem had greatly increased. I started to feel worthy of others and felt loved. it all started with that one positive thought.