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Originally Posted by venusss
You operate in dichotomies. There are various degrees of mental thoughness. And... you don't ever feel weak? I sure as hell do. I have weak moments and spots. I try to change that, because that is not helpful.
It's not easy to stop rumminating. But is it worth it? Yes. Do I wish I could do it even better?
You spend lot of time explaining why you can't do things. How about slowly practice doing them? How about each time are about to defend why you can't, just can't... you spend the time on guided imagery countering your thoughts? Maybe let yourself roll and dwell on it for limited amount of time. Put on alarm clock for five minutes. Then... imagine burning that **** on fire.
Each time intrusive thought pops up, try to counter it. Have mantras to remind yourself of who you are and what you want.
what you want from life? From yourself? How you imagine wellness? And how you want to get there?
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I feel weak all the time, it would be nice to just feel stable or like just have normal confidence not feel like I am lacking severely in it. So yeah I suppose I didn't need an article to remind me of how weak I am due to not being able to implement the suggestions.
Also I wouldn't expect it to be easy not to ruminate, even so do don't know I am capable of undoing years and years of anxiety and how my thinking has developed with being on the autism spectrum(rumination is part of that, though sometimes it can be good like ending up ruminating on an intresting topic so you learn more about it...but it can make anxiety even more hellish. So yeah just not sure I'd ever be in a potions where i never get caught ruminating I'd probably have to become neurotypical and be cured of the anxiety which I am not sure would happen...best I can do is probably try to limit my rumination on things which I do make efforts to do.
I do counter a lot of intrusive thoughts or try to, but sometimes its literally too much mental energy so I find it more effective and less exuasting to just find a distraction like listen to music, or try to find entertaining pictures/videos and what not on the internet or go for a walk or something and just not think so much.
I am not even all that sure what I want in life, from myself..as for wellness not sure what that would be I suppose being in a position I am eating healthy and enough and managing things well enough and feeling less miserable than I do much of the time but no concrete image of what 'wellness' would look like....not sure how to be well in this society and not sure how to change it in such a way wellness would look more realistic. No idea where to go or how to get there.