One more thing which I think is triggering my dissociation is that I feel rushed in therapy.

My therapist is talking about the end of therapy, and I feel I just started!

I have been evaluating if he is the best therapist for me or not?

But, I have built some trust with him and that's very hard for me in the first place due to my circumstances.

But my therapist says I am in charge of the pace of my therapy - so I decided this week I am definitely going to take charge of it and slow the pace.