I met someone a bout a year into my divorce and she lives 300 mile from me. We became fast friends on the phone and then we started to "as friends" visit each other. She was in a relationship that was ending and eventually we realized our feelings for each other meant more.

The problem is now I want more but we are both stuck due to split custody. I find myself thinking about what she is up to not in a jealous way but more of an insecure Im waiting for the call to ditch me. I am quite sure this is due to the betrayal I experienced. This causes me anxiety and I have been trying to fill myself up. I workout and keep busy but it is the late hours and early hours that seem to be the worst.

Some of this comes from being a single father and not having much social interaction. My daughter is 3 and if not with her I am working. I have recently got her into a few community events but other than that we remain alone.

My GF texted me this morning to tell me she stopped at a Halloween party last night and I got chills. I know it shouldn't matter but the long distance and blind trust are taking a toll. I think sometimes its the thought of the odds not being in our favor…I should also state she is from my home town and gets here often. Her Dad and Brother live near me. I have been friends with her brother and never knew her.. The family and I all get along well and that feels good. I am just confused.

It seems simple that I should be confidant we have fostered this relationship over the last 2 years. Friends for about the first year, and romantic for about 9 months… Sigh~