I feel embarrassment after hypo episodes when I look at what I've done and think what the hell - that couldn't have been me. I'm not very quick to forgive myself either and it's like the bad decisions keep on playing through my head over and over again and I just think how could I have done that! But eventually, after a long time, I can barely remember it, even though I'm aware of it. You're currently in a cycle of a pattern of behaviors that you are not comfortable with so it keeps on playing and replaying through your mind. Hyper sexuality and indiscretion with sexual partners can certainly be a symptom for some.

The first step to fixing something is to acknowledge that you have a problem, which you have done. The next step is figuring out how to redirect your aroused feelings so that you can stop the cycle that displeases you.

God and the devil. That's really symbolic of your conscious mind approving and then disapproving your behavior.
I wish I had some pearls of wisdom to tell you how to stop the behavior but I dont. If it were me *close your eyes if you are sensitive* I'd be finding ways to gratify myself before I go out to alleviate the impulses.

Be well.