I'm new here and fairly overwhelmed at the vastness of the site. Been poking around a bit and decided to post.

I've got a long list of projects to do, and yet I can't seem to make progress as I get bogged down researching all the options - it's exhausting!

Been eight months since we moved here and I need window coverings! I really need to decide on plants to place at the front foundation, but I'm in brainlock! As soon as I get those in place, it'll be something else!

The worst part is worrying that something terrible will happen to my family...I'm married with three kids and constantly obsessing about 'what would happen if' and then I plan out contingency plans - just in case.

There is good reason to worry (I say to myself), better not fly in a plane: that's how my parents died when I was ten. Better wear your seatbelt: that's how my brother broke his neck and became a quadraplegic. And the anxiety about abandonment is just the worst incidious thing: I was passed around quite alot after my parents died, none of my grandparents wanted to take me in....so I am not clear if I push people away, or just don't get the social stuff.