this morning i woke up fine. goodish day, no anxiety. went out to take daughter to college with hubby and her boyfriend. went shopping found out dani thinks i dont love her. hurt, angry. i have always loved and nurtured my children made them safe, cuddled them told them they are loved every day.
at the moment i am sick, not myself, that comment hurt. my mood changed in an instant, crying, despair, guilt, why do i bother. what have i done wrong. taken this comment so badly. how can she think i dont love her? i cuddled her this morniing and she pulled away and told her b/f what had she done wrong for me to cuddle her. oh my god i just cant win. she is 18 btw. i feel soalone in these feelings.tony is telling me not to bother or take it personally,stop worrying.she's my daughter and i adore her- idont feel close to her any more. is thiws me as a mum not wanting to let go cos she is a grown woman now? confused. always dreaded this moment when they find their own lives and dont need me anymore so much.
i want to be needed - is that selfish?

jin