Hi Dbryan, I'm really sorry you've been treated so badly in the past, but you are going to find people who care here
And yes, moving on from things can be way harder said than done. Have you had much opportunity to talk about the things that have happened to you?? Sometimes that can help...........
But as for the people who've treated you that way well I'd say they don't deserve to have this power over you, you are better than them. Now what happened says a lot more about them than it does about you. And you deserve to try to focus on a better future without them. I know it probably isn't at all easy, but they don't deserve to hurt you anymore.
And as for bring a good person, trying to do right by people, try to hold onto that, right??
Being who you are doesn't have to be wasted/used against you. There are much better people than those out there, people who will really admire that in you, people who won't take advantage of that.
And of course, you are going to be more alert to the one's who might let you down. So don't settle for second best in your life. Just take your time to try and know better people. I'm not saying just go leave yourself open to hurt, I'm just saying try to recognize people who do deserve to be in your life. Because you do deserve a better future.
And, if you want to talk more...........

Alison