I've done this while manic and it has lead to the belief that God and the Devil were testing me, VERY delusional thinking, and hallucinations. The worst episode I've ever had centered around these delusions. Now at the first thought that God or the enemy is testing me, I share with my husband to watch me closely and it usually ends with a call to my pdoc and a med adjustment. Keep sharing this here and hopefully with someone you are close to to ensure this does not get out of hand. Wishing you the best!