WARNING TRIGGERING!!!!

I've posted about this in dreams but no one has answered. I feel I might get a response here since I'm really confused frustrated and freaking out. My father was an abusive alcoholic who a few yrs ago was arrested and now is a registered offender. T Pdoc and others have asked if he ever did anything to me and I just don't know. I remember beatings but most of my memories are blanks. I had a dream last night and he was touching me. This has never happened before. T and Pdoc I'm sure think it's highly likely since most of my childhood was he and I alone.

My wife says when she was in therapy this was how her memories of it all started coming back. I'm not sure I'll be able to handle so well. I'm really confused. Thoughts?