I have been in relationship with a man for 8 yrs to whom I love but am not in love with. We recently broke up for a few months and I started seeing a man that I have feelings for, for many years. This new man also has had feelings for me. We dated for awhile and things were great, then I found out my ex was seeing someone else and I fought to get him back. Then things were good for a short time and now I am unhappy again. I screwed up things with the man that I actually have true feelings for to be with a man that was familiar. How does this make any sense? Do I love being miserable? I do want to be happy and I do know that I have issues and would love suggestions as to what the hell is wrong with me.