I finally snapped. I am still shaking inside and all over knowing. I'm ok, I conquered something that's been bothering me a lot. My friend from saudi arabia made me feel like what a lot of my friends make me feel worthless. I feel like to them as a guy I have to prove I'm not sad. I hate my weight I posted something about it and he comments, "grow up." I block him, and I get angry my mom and dad yell at me for being upset. I have a belt around my neck just to show how vulnerable I truly am to this world, how vulnerable everyone is when they are hard on me and I'm a dog. That's just how I feel.