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Originally Posted by DbryanYES
I have always tried to be a good person to people. I have always tried to do what's right by family and everyone else. But I feel that nobody truly cares how I feel. I have been flaked on, ditched, screwed, and hurt way too many times to count. I feel that I have become a doormat for everyone to step on and crapped on. I try to move on, but the memories are still vivid. No matter how many times people tell me to just get over it, I just have a hard time putting it in the past. I don't know if there is anybody who has suffered from this problem, but I want to deal with it so I can have healthy relationships with people again.
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The thing is, these people most likely DID step on you and treat you badly as you describe. I believe you. The fact that you are correct is actually kind of a trap because it is misdirecting you as to where the problem is. When you are not depressed, this kind of thing happens now and then. You might think about for a while and then decide to forget or you might take some action. When you are depressed, on the other hand, the memory of the insult will haunt you. It will return again and again and again and again and again. This is basically the same thing as "holding a grudge." I think that the core problem is just your depression and the best way to have healthy relationships is to undepress yourself as best you can.