For a few hours today I felt like absolute crap!

I got a call back for a job at a Dog Kennel, my sister Messaged me on MSN with the number to phone this lady back. Instant panic, I was crying and freaking out ... to scared to call, wringing my hands, I couldn't understand why I'd be so scared like this to call a job back that I know i'd be good at. Everyone always tells me to work with Animals!

From about 2-5 I was a wreak, I called up my psychiatrist balling and I just lost it. But at 5 I managed to pick up the phone and call this lady back about employment, took me a couple of hours thought my body was a wreak I was feeling things I haven't really felt before, or for a long time. I never panic!



So anyways I called, I was worried that it would be too many hours, full time 30-35 hours per week plus weekends and Holidays... I think that's what got me panicky, could I handle that many hours a week? But she already filled that position as kennel operator but she had a part time job working with a yorkshire terrier breeder 2 days a week Wed and Sun 9-5... I thought now this is along my lines, nothing to over-whelming, it's only 2 days but it can build up my self confidence and have a bit of extra money. So I haven't gotten the job yet, I am waiting to hear back from this woman. I was surprised I got back to her though after she told me about this job, I was on the phone 10mins after I hung up the phone with her telling her that transportation wasn't a problem, i'm worried that she'll fill this position without me knowing, but if that is the case, than i know I gave it my all and go to the next thing.

Anyways I don't know, i'm so tired, anxiety really takes a lot out of you...

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<font color=blue>"Never react emotionally to criticism. Analyze yourself to determine whether it is justified. If it is, correct yourself. Otherwise, go on about your business."</font color=blue>

<font color=black>Norman Vincent Peale</font color=black>