I say why not try to work in an extra visit somewhere every week. You seem to be punishing yourself or something. What is up with that? Connect or not to connect.. How to take care of the self.... hmmmm. Do you think you deserve it? What do you get with the disconnection?

I feel fortunate that my person is now seeing me temporarily weekly. Normally it is every two weeks. At least yours seems to like you. lol.

I asked before but do not think you answered,.... Can you tell us more about your dad... From something you said earlier it seemed like he might have some role in this uncomfortableness. Did you have problems connecting with him? Where is all of this fear coming from....and lack of self preservation? Dig deeper Pink. What is really going on here?