thanks Kiya but it is normal if my depersonalization is changing? sometimes I feel it different than other day... hard to describe by words, but it's just 'different'... at the moment I feel same dd as in the day I wrote this first post, have this 'feeling of talking without hearing' stuff.. but sometimes it feels totally different I have psychiatrist in wednesday, so maybe he will help, but I'm afraid that this time he may say I had wrong diagnosis, and it something mental and I should go to mental hospital... mental hospitals here are scary, old creepy buildings I don't want to go there....