Been on meds every class for 15 yrs - no silver bullet/purple pill. been in group, individual u name it. Been in partial day programs 3-4 x's - went inpatient once most degrading, humiliating and scariest experience of my life will never go back. Had ect 13x changed psychiatrist recently who was part of ECT program - said - "now you know there is a CURE" ********. doesn't believe in med management back to low dose of Paxil - not working. Can't find meaningful job, lost everything, family, career, finances, mood, relationships have all been sabotaged. I am at a loss - dont know where to turn. almost fifty starting over with 0 after the American dream was taking from me. I am so angry and frustrated by everything and everyone. Just want my life back.