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Why is it that I feel like such an idiot calling him? Why?

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I have only called my T once between sessions. I'm just too scared of rejection. Maybe the same for you?

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Sunrise, Pink, Secret, myself: Well, aren't we all on the same brain wave lately? We're a fine group eh? I'm going through this right now!!

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I feel like I'm not even in therapy anymore

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I am really emotional today, cried all the way to work, and when I read your post, pink, I started envisioning that day when I won't have my T in my life anymore. Sometime in the future I will go see my T and it will be our last session, and I will have to say good-bye. I just started crying, here and now, in my office at work. I'm a basket case. I'm dealing with other good-byes right now, and they are seeping over into T-land, not to mention my work. Got to pull it together.

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I have been doing this a lot lately too. I'm in mourning and we haven't discussed ending it yet. I just feel like that is where he's steering me. Isn't that the point though? Did we expect this to go on forever? Maybe we need to examine why we aren't ready to start reducing rather than increasing sessions.

What happens if I they don't call me back? What if I just wait until the 18th like originally planned? Right now I feel awful but maybe I should take it one day at a time...

Just some thoughts...