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Originally Posted by Yismymindblank12
I finally snapped. I am still shaking inside and all over knowing. I'm ok, I conquered something that's been bothering me a lot. My friend from saudi arabia made me feel like what a lot of my friends make me feel worthless. I feel like to them as a guy I have to prove I'm not sad. I hate my weight I posted something about it and he comments, "grow up." I block him, and I get angry my mom and dad yell at me for being upset. I have a belt around my neck just to show how vulnerable I truly am to this world, how vulnerable everyone is when they are hard on me and I'm a dog. That's just how I feel.
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I think it was brave of you to block him, and any friends who make you feel worthless then perhaps you would be better off without them in your life anymore. I don't understand your parent's anger over your anger, but I don't know enough about the situation to comment intelligently. I hope you have removed the belt around your neck because no matter how vulnerable you feel, you are nobody's dog and you have value. You can find your place in the world and be productive, but first you have to remove all the toxic people from your life. It's not easy, but it removes a huge weight from your shoulders so you can focus on yourself and solving your problems. A therapist can help you with this if you don't already have one.
Blessings to you and I hope your pain is removed so that you can begin to heal.
WW