mommaxo,

Wow, you have had a lot happen to you in what you wrote, it would not surprise me if you did have PTSD or "complex PTSD". However, I can't diagnose you, just say it is possible.

Here is a link you can read that might click with you.

Complex post traumatic stress disorder (complex ptsd, pdsd, shell shock, nervous shock, combat fatigue), symptoms and the difference between mental illness and psychiatric injury explained

Also, if you check out the subforum of complex PTSD above the PTSD forum on top DocJohn posted a link but there are other links you can look at from that link and all these are helpful too IMO.
Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder | Psych Central

http://forums.psychcentral.com/compl...ml#post4061875

I am so sorry you endured all those awful things, hopefully you can finally get on track with finding a good therapist and working through it all and "heal".

((Caring Hugs))
OE