Quarter Life,

Sadly, yes, you also describe it very well. Nobody should have to live this way, but we do and here we are.

Its hard because I relax just a little, and he finds a new way to get to me.

I cannot get a restraining order right now, because I moved to another town and do not want him to know where I am. A restraining order means meeting him in court. That would tell him the general area I live in, of course.

If he does indeed find me here (so far its just online right now) - if he actually comes here - then by all means I need to take him to court for the restraining order.

But for now, I think not doing that is best.

I do avoid engaging him - I slipped up, made a mistake and engaged with him one time - and saw immediately the mistake I'd made.

So I will never make the mistake again.

I am doing my best to take care of myself - but being stalked does make chills go down your spine, makes you wonder about your future, and yes, does make you think you're going crazy on occasion.

Hugs to you too! Be well.