That is no way to make yourself feel better about yourself even if you thought your marriage was over.....it's a lousy way of attracting even worse men than the one you married. Lower your standards to doing things like that & you aren't going to end up any happier but dig an even deeper hold for unhappiness.

Honestly, IMO, it would be better for you to get the divorce & spend a lot of time trying to get your own act together & learn to value yourself without it being based on someone else's value of you. If you really want to attract a husband who truly loves you for who you really are.

You didn't even know this guy before you married him so I'm not sure how you could really love someone you didn't know.....you don't know people when you know them at a distance without actually having REAL live interface with them & know how they really treat you.....don't waste your time on long distance relationships like that....find some real person where you live.

I would NEVER put up with anyone treating me the way that he treated you. I would have been gone the very first time....but again, lack of self-confidence kept you going back & you doing the apologizing when it should have been him that was apologizing. He had no right to treat you the way he did no matter how much lack of self-confidence you have for yourself. It's good that you left....& IMO, it doesn't matter whether he changes of not.....you both have a lot of growing up to do before you either of you are really ready for a relationship.....you need self-confidence so that you aren't seeking his approval & he needs to control his anger before he ever needs to be with anyone. I think I would blow off that marriage as a huge mistake & make sure you learn the needed lessons from it yourself.....the abuse is his responsibility, but sexting & sending nude photos over the phone is NEVER an acceptable action if you really want anyone else to value you as a valuable person....you need to take stock of how bad it made you feel about yourself & don't take their cheap reactions as giving you a feeling of value. Don't do it again if you really want to value yourself as a person & you want others to value you also.

When we learn from our mistakes we grow & mature & if that's all we can take away from something like this....then it was a valuable lesson & leave the marriage as that....get the divorce & find someone you know for several years before EVER getting married.....that way you will really be able to see any red flags before you get yourself into a marriage. Wait for the right person & don't settle for less.