Hi I haven't posted in a long time but could really do with some help right now.

A male work colleague told me a few months ago there marriage was over and I told them I was sorry to hear that and I was there if they needed me, anyway some of my other work colleagues started talking nastily about him be hind his back so for a bit of fun we plotted to make out we were having an affair as I am married as well. One night while joking about it came out that he liked me for real but wouldn't do anything because I was happy with my husband but he didn't know I wasn't sure if I was starting to have feelings for him or not because if my phone went off I hoped it would be him so we met up for an hour and I knew from then I did. I always thought I was happy with my husband of 19yrs but I must not be as I am thinking of leaving him in the new year.

Anyway my question is would you say it is an affair or not all we have done is kiss, cuddle and hold hands please help I think it is an affair but he doesn't PLEASE help my head is so messed up right now. Sorry for the long post.