hi!!

i am hearing voices for a few months now and i don't really know what to do...
at first i thought they help me, but then i noticed they are liars...
they sound nice but they aren't nice... it seems like so stupid as if they know what's good and what not... they say they are demons and that they lie with the feelings... unfortunately that seems to be what they actually do... they say for example "oh i'm so sad for your life"... but they say that laughin...g but that's only one example... they say stupid things and laugh saying that...it said it wants to hypnotize me.... that felt so disgusting.... i've been crying a lot lately....
i don't really know what to do.. i don't want to talk to a doctor about that...
i was in psychiatry already and tried 2 medications for a month which was the worst time of my life but i kept hearing the voices and never told anyone... i also got mental images of the demon... it was just really really really ugly....
and i also see stupid faces in the clouds, on the ground, in the trees or when i close my eyes... yeah maybe i should go to a priest like someone told me...
but i am also a bit afraid of doing that... maybe someone has some advice??
of course basically people have to say "please go to a doctor or therapist"...
but i don't feel like that would help me so much... it feels like it only makes it more complicated... i just hope god wants to help me...

peace