You're the one who counts! Always remember this : YOU are the one who is taking care of yourself, who knows you the best, and...who can get you out of this. Not by suicide. Suicide is only for the weak. You, getting on this forum showed that you still have the power to take the first steps of getting yourself out of this sorrow and live like you always wanted. Send me a pm if you want to get in touch with me on skype. It will be my pleasure